Beauty Lessons Part One

One of the first lessons I learned when it came to be a girl is that little girls were suppose to be pretty while little boys were suppose to be handsome.  Another way of saying this is that one of my first needs as a little girl was to feel pretty.  I was possibly too young to know what made one girl pretty and another girl less so, but I knew that when I was out and about with my Mom I really liked it when I would heard comments such as 'Oh, what a pretty little girl."

It was a very simple leap from the desire to be pretty to the desire to have boys see me as pretty.  One does not have to spend too much time watching televisions or movies or just people in the malls to know that being pretty as a girl is all about being liked by boys.

Right behind these lessons was the realization that if I wanted boys to find me pretty I had to be even prettier than other girls.  I would have to try harder.  You see I really, really wanted boys to find me pretty.  If all of this sounds really redundant, then you maybe have some sense of just how important it was to me as a little girl to have boys like me. Maybe that is one day in the park I decided to kiss a boy.