When you are young, every significant event in your life feels like a turning point. What child does not look forward to turning twelve and becoming a teenage, as if that really means anything. For me the summer I turned thirteen was the single most important summer of my childhood. It defined me. And I am saying this fully aware that it is too easy for many teenagers to attach too mcu importance to their personal turning points.This was the summer when it all became real to me, when being a girl became about more than just the clothes I wore or the name I preferred.
It was the summer I starting sucking cock. It began with Jon. He was my first. He was the first to put his dick in my mouth. He was the first to dump me after he got what he had wanted.
This is the summer I would learn that I was not a boy anymore. Okay maybe you had heard this before. At the age of eight I decided I would never be a boy. At ten I got fucked by my brother and had so many questions answered about who I was.
However this was t he summer I started sucking dick. This was the summer when it ceased to be about what I wanted and became about what the boys wanted. I had always wanted to be a girl. Now the boys wanted me to be a girl. And as was often the case this summer, they wanted me to be a girl for them even when they did not know I was really a boy. They just wanted me to suck their dick.
Now of course an argument could be made that I was not yet there yet. That I would not truly become a woman or leave behind being a boy until I started taking dick up the ass regularly. There is no question that being with boys would change once I started fucking as can be seen on this video of me and Paul taken about three summers later. However to a certain extent whether I was just sucking dick or 'going all the way' it was still about what the boys wanted and what I was doing for the boys that most other girls my age would not.
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