Raising Her Daughter in Spokane Part Eleven

My mother is a very attractive woman. She is one of those women who almost seemed to get more attractive as she grew older. As has been repeated shared, she wanted a daughter and I stepped into that role as Yvonne.

I suspect my Mom is not unique as most mother go.  She wanted a daughter because she wanted someone not unlike herself to raise.  If I had been born a girl, I am quite certain that virtually everything my mother taught me about being beautiful and sexually desirable to men would have been part of my upbringing.

However I was not born a girl.  I was born a boy.  And while that I was a boy made the challenge of beauty and sexual desirability more a challenge, it also makes it more essential.

I should stress that it was not my mother's goal when I was five and six and seven years old for me to be sexually desirable.  However, Mom was a very sexual woman  -- as I would learn.  She loved men and she loved sex.  This is something that became increasingly apparent after Mom and Dad divorced and keeping her sex life secret from an older than before daughter was less necessary.

I think Mom instinctively knew that it was one thing to raise me as a a girl and it was a totally different thing to raise me as an ugly or fat or man-ish girl.   Once I was of the age where most girls start to think more about boys because most boys are thinking more about girls, it became important to my Mom that the boys liked what  they saw when they looked at me.

It is only of small importance that Mom started to focus on this aspect of Yvonne after I had already starting sucking cock for just about any boy who wanted to put his dick in my mouth.